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  1. Jesus Christ please don't kill yourself it's not worth it. Go to the hospital or tell a friend or family member IMMEDIATELY!! Please just don't die I promise life gets better. It has its ups and downs but please live through the downs please it'll only get harder but you'll come out of it even stronger. So again I beg you please go to a hospital or call 911 so they can save you. Please just please hang in there and save your life before it's too late.

    But what can I say to them? That I fear my boss is gonna fire me and send the cops? with my medical record they’ll most likely believe I’m paranoic or delussional.

    I’ll be honest here, I’m scared of prison. Now that I’m calmer and thinking clearly, that’s all I can think of.

    I fear prison, I’m afraid they’ll file charges against me, since the boss never liked me. I’m afraid they’ll find a way to blame me for the recent losses (games, cards, even money). he has “proof” I’m a problematic worker, or so he says. I’m pretty sure he’ll point towards me as the culprit, even when I’m not.

    I fear prison so much I rather chose death. I don’t want prison, and I don’t want to be locked in a psych hospital either. I’m not doing anything dangerous right now, honest.


    Dear, I’m sorry if my previous reply was cold or even rude… I don’t want you to be mad at me. But I also don’t want to make you feel sick or anything… last thing I want is to have that worry on my shoulders.

    I love you my dear Princess, don’t leave me now.

  3. my life’s become a shade of gray
    you’re the only one that can make it okay
    I see your razor on the shelf
    time to lock the door and use it on myself

    I can’t believe my eyes, you are not here to save my life
    and I don’t want to go, I love you, I love you, but I’ve lost control
    I can’t believe you’re gone, you were my life all along
    now bury me below, I love you, I love you, but I have to go

    I can’t go on living this way, my entire world is now filled with, dismay
    and I don’t think I should have to stay
    in a messed up world that fucking tortures, everyday

    I can’t believe my eyes, you are not here to save my life
    and I don’t want to go, I love you, I love you, but I’ve lost control
    I can’t believe you’re gone, you were my life all along
    now bury me below, I love you, I love you, but I have to go

    I’ll set myself free, into this dark abyss I’ll go
    I’ll set myself free, so I won’t feel the pain anymore

  4. Naminamiluv!!!! Please don't take antifreeze and meds over these douchebags!! You're worth so much more than all their bs and drama. We, I, need you and love you!! One more day, one more breath, if you can even just call a suicide hotline to talk about the emptiness <3 read a fanfic?

    it’s not really about them, it’s just a preventive measure in case they send in the cops for me. I won’t do anything if I am not their culprit. I won’t be able to do anything to defend myself if my former boss finds a way to blame me for this loss.

    Remember he said I was problematic? And that the other two workers weren’t? My former boss constantly complained about me, for him I was the source of all problems in that store. And I’m pretty sure he’s gonna find me the culprit of everything, you know why? I was told that “ever since he’s been here, things are getting lost, and only you two had arguments, one of you is responsible, and I’m pretty sure he won’t risk his job over you.”

    I love you sweetie, I need you just as much. I don’t know if I want to leave honestly, I don’t know.

    I won’t call a hotline, the house is too small and someone might hear me talking on the phone. As for fics? I’m not sure if i want to read right now… I tried with a book, and even tried playing a game.

  5. chrome-blade said: Will you talk to me? Please? I know I haven’t been too talkative lately, but… I just need to talk to you.

    Yes dear. I sent you a note.

  6. You know what’s weird?

    I don’t feel scared, nervous or anything. I’m empty. Yet somehow, I feel a deep peace.

    "I don’t have regrets anymore. I’m perfectly satisfied" Said a character in Majora’s Mask. That’s exactly how I feel.

    Maybe, just maybe, my only regret will be to never see Gasket again to say goodbye.

  7. Tomorrow may very well be my last day on Earth… or however long it takes antifreeze to kill a person

    Did I ever tell you that my boss wanted to fire me? And that he was looking for very possible way to?

    Huh, it seems he got his wish. You see, we’re changing management again, and I don’t know what was said and done behind the scenes… thing is…

    On Monday we made the weekly stocktaking, everything was perfect, all things in place. Yesterday was my day off..

    But today? When I arrived at 10am, the new manager, my boss and a couple more persons were there making a new stocktaking… only to find a PSVita 8GB memory card and a PSVita Assassins Creed game were lost. How culd both things, specially the memory card, which are suppossed to be stored in the back of the store get lost?

    The new manager said she isn’t afraid of turning the cops on us, she’ll go as far as arrest whoever she sees in the CCTV walking close to where the cards were in the last couple of weeks. They’re going to check every record for the month, and idk, but I was told I should try to remember closely what I did with any PSVita thing I handled in the last couple of weeks (I did sell three 8GB cards in the course of the month, last one over a week ago). But, why would they arrest someone for handling PSVita cards two weeks ago when it got lost THIS monday???

    Heh, as soon as I arrived I checked EVERYTHING I ever brought to the store; my 3DS bag, my backpack, my jackets, the last three games I bought, even the trash bags from my walmart meals… just to make sure they didn’t plant evidence in my stuff. I’m all clean, I know I am clean…

    Oh and my (former) boss opened an administrative record with two letters against me, admin. records are like signing death sentences… three and you’re gone, unable to ever get a new job anywhere else. He made TWO letters.

    But if they do turn the cops on me and have me arrested which would also mean I’ll never be able to have another job (that is, if they don’t lock me up for five years) they aren’t gonna have that joy. The bag of anti-freeze and the bottles of medicines are already in my bag.

    My family has no means to ever win a case against a big TV-owned retailer, so my preventive measures aren’t that extreme.

  8. Write me a TBH (To be Honest), stating an honest fact or thought you feel about me. Or just something honest you wanna say to me. Start the sentence off with “Tbh”.
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